Being new mom

From the moment i saw those 2 red lines on home pregnancy test, i knew my life would change.But never thought it would change so much that- i without being rebellious (which otherwise i am) would opt for it willingly.

After 9 months of regarious eating..that too healthy eating, with 13.5kgs more weight added to my existing body (was 60kgs before pregnancy and hit 73.5kgs before delivering), with lot of swelling on legs, I finally delivered a premature child on 27th march 2012.My due date was on 25th april….guess my daughter was too excited to see the world, hence the early arrival.

Today(27th april)  is her 1st month birthday and like a small kid i am very excited. My daughter  would probably-surely wont even know or understand what’s happening around. she is busy vomiting, making 10 to 15 cloth diaper each day,taking feed every 3 hours around the clock. In-spite of the sleep deprition and endless tiredness, i cherish her actions and want to capture her every action in snaps, video and my memory.My friend Hemant has got some wonderful cloths on her 1st month birthday.

Few moments which i cherish, laugh and really adore are:-

• The 1st time she farted aloud…she got so scared with the phenomenon that she cried for 15 mins. It was my responsibility to counsel her.She got so frightened that i couldn’t stop laughing on my cute little angel.
• Her Usually feed time at night is around 11am-1st feed,3am-2nd feed and 6:30am-3rd feed. Usually she starts to feed at 3am and finishes by 3:20. After 3:20am either she has a sound sleep or is wide awake to play.Her play time usually lasts for an hour.At times she watches fan, or listens to my talk or does her continuous cycling with hands and legs. She was busy analysing her hands for about 15mins, i interpreted by my talks. She got so scared that again she started crying. Her expression was:- who the hell are you and how dare you entire my room in the middle of the night and why are you talking to me……i was taken a back for a moment…thinking i scared my daughter…with in 2 seconds she regained her play and i was relived. But the way she was scared was hilarious.
• she loves to pamper herself…no matter how frantic she is crying the moment i apply talcum powder she is relived.
• She hates when i change her cloth diaper or disposable diaper that too after she has made it dirty with loo or poo.I have to take her wetness without changing her diaper…is what her expectations are…..hard to fulfil.
• She has been given a calcium and multivitamin syrup, which she loves to drink as its sweet. Apart from breatfeed milk she consumes this syrup.By birth she is a gassy baby…she has got lot of colic….and has trouble passing poo.Hence doc has recommended a colic syrup which is not sweet.She tries to spit it out every-time we try to put it into her stomach.
• Its taken about more than a week to post this article……..

Self-Discipline

Self discipline is one of the most toughest and my next to be conquered quality. Being social and highly unsystematic makes it even more difficult for me to even think for this goal. But i have made a decision to achieve the target of been self-disciplined.

Before starting i must remind myself the effort put by a normal person ( a person who is at-least more systematic than i am) could require less motivation and effort to be self-disciplined than me. Where as I would require a mountain’s measure effort to get the same result which a normal person could put a ants effort to achieve. So in nut shell to achieve a goal i would end up requiring more motivation and effort.

Effort is one parameter which i am comfortable putting in….but problem lies in motivation. I am not motivated enough to do that effort. Lets start with understanding what is self-discipline?

Self-discipline is the ability to get yourself to take action regardless of your emotional state.

Consistent emotional state is something that i have been struggling life long. Either i am way to excited or sad or surprised or confused or ……….so its not constant. I dont know for other people but for me its always a merry-go-round.

So by now u might have understood my need to be self-disciplined..is basically to overcome my emotional state.In order to achieve my target i have designed ways as described below:-

1) Schedule a task:- Schedule a particular task either in the morning or evening.The task should not take more than 15mins and should be practise every day.Wait for the exact scheduled time. If you are usual busy than keep a phone alarm 5 mins prior to the scheduled time and also at the start of the task.When the schedule time is due start the task.Stick to the schedule for at-least 2 months.I have scheduled reading blog as my task. I am habituated to read blog as in when i require time and the time consumed was enromous when calculated at the end of the day.

Scheduling helped me to focus on priority issues rather than getting carried away with other task.

2) Harness the power of routine:- Instead of devoting a lot of hours one day, and none the other and then a few on an another day and so on, allocate a specific time period each day of the week for that task.Be firm.Don’t set a goal other than time allocation, simply set the habit of routine.I Applied this technique to projects.

You are working on tasks in small increments, not all at once. You first develop a habit, then the habit does the job for you.I am still trying to master this routine, as its kills me to follow a routine.

Self-discipline is like a muscle. The more you train it the stronger it becomes . The less you train it the weaker it becomes.Just as it takes time to build a muscle, it takes enormous time to build self-discipline.

It’s a mistake to try to push yourself too hard when trying to build self-discipline. If you try to transform your entire life overnight by setting dozens of new goals for yourself and expecting yourself to follow through consistently starting the very next day, you’re almost certain to fail. This is like a person going to the gym for the first time ever and packing 300 pounds on the bench press. You will only look silly.

Take small steps and enjoy the result.

 

 

 

Something is missing in me……

Have you ever come across this thought? This thought has crossed my mind million times in last 15 years.Its not specific about anything but  just general.

When ever i re-evaluate my life i start getting this feeling.Something is missing in me to make it through in a better way…..ironically what is ” missing in me”’ is unknown to me.That amuses me periodically.When I know something is missing than how come i don’t know what it is….When i don’t know what’s missing than how can I ever find it.When ever i see someone more successful in any area i start getting this feeling.Let me recite when i get this feeling:-

Someone might have got a good job than me,got a promotion over me (What the hell—what’s wrong with me?????), someone has cooked the same recipe better than me (she borrowed my family recipe and made it better, what did i miss), someone drives seamless as compared to me, someone is more content with little less than what I have in life, perfect body shape and size, more athletic than me,more cheerful, more thoughtful, more humanity with little less to offer, better constructive thinking in more despair situations,more affective,more self-disciplined, self-less than me,optimistic, comfortable with what they have and what  they cant have in life, more matured, more settle is reacting over unpleasant experience and the list is endless.More than anything i envy people who have more energy and enthusiasm than me…..these 2 things unlocks most important experience in life.

Than once in a while when i sip into my hot chocolate during early morning while experiencing the morning bliss given by nature, I realize that something missing in me (which i am unknown of) has brought me through.This ”something missing” has made me stand out and contributed to be me. Has highlighted me in capital bold and underlined me(as we usually do to highlight a statement—ctrl b+ctrl u)

What ever I have done or achieved in life is because there is something in me to succeed the way I want. In search of finding and developing the missing factor in me has manifested in many ways.It has driven me to be a better human being. I have understood the difference between more successful person and myself is the TRY.Try to be someone better than i am. In this search of making myself a better person i unknowing, sub-consciously override the missing factor in me.As far as I know that’s all that matters

Been Mermaid for the first time

It had been a long cherished dream which i had thought to make reality one day.The dream was Scuba Diving.Right from the time i have learnt swimming( 7th grade) i wanted to dive and see the life beneath the water. For some unknown reason it was a attraction filled with curiosity.Deep blue water with fragile fish and dense coral with amazing snaps made it a fantastic experience for life.

Scuba diving had definitely been qualified in must-do -before-die list of mine.I was waiting for the right opportunity though. I always thought  scuba diving is extension of swimming. U just have to wear the apparatus and jump in the water with those light weight cylinder and beautiful fins and you are welcome to witness the beautiful underwater life in their surroundings.I was dying to become mermaid…….with pink fins(me being girl, excuse me of the fins colour) and invisible oxygen cylinder, my hair open floating in the direction of deep water –making me a perfect mermaid, what a dream.

Finally me and vishal got a way to book the scuba diving experience. We thought lets try, no harm been mermaid in controlled atmosphere.I whispered to vishal, you would see the mermaid in me rolling all under the water and gliding so comfortably that you would forget i am human.

The day(23rd june) arrived on which we had booked our session, it was 9am in the morning on Saturday.I exactly woke up at 9:5am and jumped out of my bed to hit the pool for the wonderful scuba diving experience. For the first time i dived with dive-line Ipswich.It was 9:30am by the time i figured out  the place. The guy briefed me to come back next time as the session had already started.So he re-booked us on 6th August 2011. The mermaid in me was trying to come out desperately…….but somehow i put her to rest for few more days.

On 6th august we hit the pool before time.I couldn’t hold the mermaid in..let me out you human bitch…….let me out. I was like,sssssshhhhh for couple of minutes than you will be on your on.The instructor greeted us and started to brief about certain safety measure. Couple of things that he briefed:-

1) Sign language inside the water. For obvious reason you cannot speak in water.You have to get your work done with sign lang.I hope i had this rule in my office, i would made my boss run post to pillar to explain her stand to me.Never mind,coming back to the topic.Everybody has to be on same page for the sign lang.Hence we practised a little bit and we were through

2) Pressure level on ears and lungs.Which ever part of your body has air, will be subject to more intense air pressure.As you go deep in the water you should be aware of how pressure works on your body.For simple reasons to be alive.

3) Apparatus:-Introduction, cleaning and fitting of fins, oxygen cylinder, air gauge and face mask.

All dressed up and excited. We entered the pool.Our 1st objective was to learn how to breathe inside the water with the help of  oxygen cylinder.The instructor carefully explained to all of us and showed us the demo. I was really impressed by him.He than asked us to dip ourself in the water and start breathing.I went inside and within 2 mins surfaced out……what the hell the happened? I couldn’t breathe, where is the mermaid in me.””””’hello….some one there…please come out””””’. The instructor followed me on the surface and again trained me on the breathing process. My observation made me realize i was the only one on the surface, all other participants where doing fine.Where is the mermaid in me…….let me call her mermaid mermaid…..no response.Guess she didn’t like the water or the fins colour( the one i was wearing was yellow)…. never mind let me give it a try.Vishal came twice to help me with my breathing couple of times. When we were on surface he made faces to me…..”’gliding in the water, i can barely see you in water”’ . I had bugged me with my excitement all the way till v started diving. Now it has his turn to bugg me on my non-performance. It took me 20 mins to figure out the right way to breathe.By that time the whole class was ahead of me….i was the only one struggling.

It was such a wonderful experience to be weightless and breathing inside the water like mermaid.Finally, instrutour explained us the various safety measure taken in the water. We played disc for a while, had a small competition across the pool( You guessed it right, i was last) , experienced pressure 20feet inside and water and splashed lot of water on each other. Overall very satisfactory experience.Will recommend again to everyone till than i am trying to get hold of the mermaid in me.

Think different

I have fallen in love with this commercial, i have read it like hundred times by now. Every-time i re-hear it-it gives me more in depth definition and en-lightment.  ”Think different” is an advertising slogan created for apple computers in 1997

The one-minute commercial featured black-and-white footage of 17 iconic 20th century personalities. In order of appearance they were: Albert Einstein, Bob Dylan, Martin Luther King, Jr.,Richard Branson, John Lennon (with Yoko Ono), Buckminster Fuller, Thomas Edison, Muhammad Ali, Ted Turner, Maria Callas, Mahatma Gandhi, Amelia Earhart, Alfred Hitchcock,Martha Graham, Jim Henson (with Kermit the Frog), Frank Lloyd Wright and Pablo Picasso. The commercial ends with an image of a young girl (identified as Shaan Sahota) opening her closed eyes, as if to see the possibilities before her.

Original

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Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes.The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They invent. They imagine. They heal. They explore. They create. They inspire. They push the human race forward. Maybe they have to be crazy. How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art? Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written? Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels? We make tools for these kinds of people. While some see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.

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Full version

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Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do. – Apple Inc.

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Short version

“	Here’s to the crazy ones. The rebels. The troublemakers. The ones who see things differently. While some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.

Physiotherapy(Post hydro-dilatation)

I was very happy with the Hydrodilatation results.The stiffness had gone, didn’t get the  feel of pain, 80% movements were back and i could carry weights in my hands.Results were has accepted.Finally after clavicle fracture and all non-sense things happened my body had responded to something good.

I use to think quite often, what terrible sins i have done for which i am paying off . Had I understood the logic of our creator-i would have been besides him creating those logic and implementing them. I thanked god for the success of this circumstances.So after brainstorming, i decided to accept to pay for my sins and be thankful that god didnt punish me more severely and more further.

Now, as my mental health was positive and physically body was responding –which signifies i was in a good shape.Started the physiotherapy and after 4 sessions the therapist realized my hand movements above the shoulder was not correct.All the exercise below the shoulder level where fine in fact very seamless. But i had lot of difficulty in exercise above shoulder.The way forward to solve this problem was to go in for one another Hydro-dilatation.As i was already comfortable with the process and its after effects, i was at piece.

So, currently i am waiting for my next hearing i.e my next hydrodilatation appointment. Will keep guys posted about effects and progress after the injection.

Few wow factor restaurant in london

Big and beautiful flash and showy or unexpectedly impressive wow factor makes an event unforgettable.

1) 40|30 at the Gherkin.

Location:-The city—-Nearest tube:- Aldgate—-Cuisine:- French

40|30 is the restaurant and bar at the very top of the gherkin- one of the most iconic building in london. So if you are looking to impress you know what they say :big building, big party.

2) Altitude 360

Location:-Westminster—-Nearest tube:- Pimlico—-Cuisine:- British

Altitude 360 London is situated in the heart of Westminster in London’s famous SW1, right next to the London Eye, The Houses of Parliament and The River Thames. The venue commands stunning views over all of London and her prominent landmarks.

3) Attic London

Location:-Canary Wharf—-Nearest tube:- South Quays DLR —-Cuisine:- Canapes

The attention to detail of the interior is staggering with ‘50s style furniture offering commodious comfort whilst a panoramic view of London brings an unadulterated wow factor. The bar is surrounded by black granite and the precious stone Tiger’s Eye flown in from India.

4) Hurlingham club

Location:-Fulham—-Nearest tube:- Putney Bridge —-Cuisine:- British

Bordering the Thames in Fulham and set in 42 acres of magnificent grounds, The Hurlingham Club is a green oasis of tradition and international renown. Recognised throughout the world as one of Britain’s greatest private members’ clubs, it retains its quintessentially English traditions and heritage, while providing modern facilities and services for its members.

5) The landmark

Location:-Marylebone—-Nearest tube:- Marylebone —-Cuisine:- British/Afternoon Tea

Whether for business or please, this hotel caters to your every need making it a landmark by name and nature.A lavish banquet in the The Grand Ballroom after a dramatic entrance through the atrium of the hotel mesmerises your mind.

6) Vista

Location:-Trafalgar square—-Nearest tube:-charing cross —-Cuisine:- Modern Europe

A stylish oasis above the chaos of trafalgar square, vista is a design as sophisticated as the view. In true London style, the sleek, monochrome design tells a story of the city in all its fashionable, trend-setting glory. With black polished tables, smooth white stools, charcoal decking and signature patterned cushions, the design achieves a neutral yet striking space.