Before starting i must remind myself the effort put by a normal person ( a person who is at-least more systematic than i am) could require less motivation and effort to be self-disciplined than me. Where as I would require a mountain’s measure effort to get the same result which a normal person could put a ants effort to achieve. So in nut shell to achieve a goal i would end up requiring more motivation and effort.

Effort is one parameter which i am comfortable putting in….but problem lies in motivation. I am not motivated enough to do that effort. Lets start with understanding what is self-discipline?

Self-discipline is the ability to get yourself to take action regardless of your emotional state.

Consistent emotional state is something that i have been struggling life long. Either i am way to excited or sad or surprised or confused or ……….so its not constant. I dont know for other people but for me its always a merry-go-round.

So by now u might have understood my need to be self-disciplined..is basically to overcome my emotional state.In order to achieve my target i have designed ways as described below:-

1) Schedule a task:- Schedule a particular task either in the morning or evening.The task should not take more than 15mins and should be practise every day.Wait for the exact scheduled time. If you are usual busy than keep a phone alarm 5 mins prior to the scheduled time and also at the start of the task.When the schedule time is due start the task.Stick to the schedule for at-least 2 months.I have scheduled reading blog as my task. I am habituated to read blog as in when i require time and the time consumed was enromous when calculated at the end of the day.

Scheduling helped me to focus on priority issues rather than getting carried away with other task.

2) Harness the power of routine:- Instead of devoting a lot of hours one day, and none the other and then a few on an another day and so on, allocate a specific time period each day of the week for that task.Be firm.Don’t set a goal other than time allocation, simply set the habit of routine.I Applied this technique to projects.

You are working on tasks in small increments, not all at once. You first develop a habit, then the habit does the job for you.I am still trying to master this routine, as its kills me to follow a routine.

Self-discipline is like a muscle. The more you train it the stronger it becomes . The less you train it the weaker it becomes.Just as it takes time to build a muscle, it takes enormous time to build self-discipline.

It’s a mistake to try to push yourself too hard when trying to build self-discipline. If you try to transform your entire life overnight by setting dozens of new goals for yourself and expecting yourself to follow through consistently starting the very next day, you’re almost certain to fail. This is like a person going to the gym for the first time ever and packing 300 pounds on the bench press. You will only look silly.

Take small steps and enjoy the result.

Have you ever come across this thought? This thought has crossed my mind million times in last 15 years.Its not specific about anything but  just general.

When ever i re-evaluate my life i start getting this feeling.Something is missing in me to make it through in a better way…..ironically what is ” missing in me”’ is unknown to me.That amuses me periodically.When I know something is missing than how come i don’t know what it is….When i don’t know what’s missing than how can I ever find it.When ever i see someone more successful in any area i start getting this feeling.Let me recite when i get this feeling:-

Someone might have got a good job than me,got a promotion over me (What the hell—what’s wrong with me?????), someone has cooked the same recipe better than me (she borrowed my family recipe and made it better, what did i miss), someone drives seamless as compared to me, someone is more content with little less than what I have in life, perfect body shape and size, more athletic than me,more cheerful, more thoughtful, more humanity with little less to offer, better constructive thinking in more despair situations,more affective,more self-disciplined, self-less than me,optimistic, comfortable with what they have and what  they cant have in life, more matured, more settle is reacting over unpleasant experience and the list is endless.More than anything i envy people who have more energy and enthusiasm than me…..these 2 things unlocks most important experience in life.

Than once in a while when i sip into my hot chocolate during early morning while experiencing the morning bliss given by nature, I realize that something missing in me (which i am unknown of) has brought me through.This ”something missing” has made me stand out and contributed to be me. Has highlighted me in capital bold and underlined me(as we usually do to highlight a statement—ctrl b+ctrl u)

What ever I have done or achieved in life is because there is something in me to succeed the way I want. In search of finding and developing the missing factor in me has manifested in many ways.It has driven me to be a better human being. I have understood the difference between more successful person and myself is the TRY.Try to be someone better than i am. In this search of making myself a better person i unknowing, sub-consciously override the missing factor in me.As far as I know that’s all that matters

It had been a long cherished dream which i had thought to make reality one day.The dream was Scuba Diving.Right from the time i have learnt swimming( 7th grade) i wanted to dive and see the life beneath the water. For some unknown reason it was a attraction filled with curiosity.Deep blue water with fragile fish and dense coral with amazing snaps made it a fantastic experience for life.

Scuba diving had definitely been qualified in must-do -before-die list of mine.I was waiting for the right opportunity though. I always thought  scuba diving is extension of swimming. U just have to wear the apparatus and jump in the water with those light weight cylinder and beautiful fins and you are welcome to witness the beautiful underwater life in their surroundings.I was dying to become mermaid…….with pink fins(me being girl, excuse me of the fins colour) and invisible oxygen cylinder, my hair open floating in the direction of deep water –making me a perfect mermaid, what a dream.

Finally me and vishal got a way to book the scuba diving experience. We thought lets try, no harm been mermaid in controlled atmosphere.I whispered to vishal, you would see the mermaid in me rolling all under the water and gliding so comfortably that you would forget i am human.

The day(23rd june) arrived on which we had booked our session, it was 9am in the morning on Saturday.I exactly woke up at 9:5am and jumped out of my bed to hit the pool for the wonderful scuba diving experience. For the first time i dived with dive-line Ipswich.It was 9:30am by the time i figured out  the place. The guy briefed me to come back next time as the session had already started.So he re-booked us on 6th August 2011. The mermaid in me was trying to come out desperately…….but somehow i put her to rest for few more days.

On 6th august we hit the pool before time.I couldn’t hold the mermaid in..let me out you human bitch…….let me out. I was like,sssssshhhhh for couple of minutes than you will be on your on.The instructor greeted us and started to brief about certain safety measure. Couple of things that he briefed:-

1) Sign language inside the water. For obvious reason you cannot speak in water.You have to get your work done with sign lang.I hope i had this rule in my office, i would made my boss run post to pillar to explain her stand to me.Never mind,coming back to the topic.Everybody has to be on same page for the sign lang.Hence we practised a little bit and we were through

2) Pressure level on ears and lungs.Which ever part of your body has air, will be subject to more intense air pressure.As you go deep in the water you should be aware of how pressure works on your body.For simple reasons to be alive.

3) Apparatus:-Introduction, cleaning and fitting of fins, oxygen cylinder, air gauge and face mask.

All dressed up and excited. We entered the pool.Our 1st objective was to learn how to breathe inside the water with the help of  oxygen cylinder.The instructor carefully explained to all of us and showed us the demo. I was really impressed by him.He than asked us to dip ourself in the water and start breathing.I went inside and within 2 mins surfaced out……what the hell the happened? I couldn’t breathe, where is the mermaid in me.””””’hello….some one there…please come out””””’. The instructor followed me on the surface and again trained me on the breathing process. My observation made me realize i was the only one on the surface, all other participants where doing fine.Where is the mermaid in me…….let me call her mermaid mermaid…..no response.Guess she didn’t like the water or the fins colour( the one i was wearing was yellow)…. never mind let me give it a try.Vishal came twice to help me with my breathing couple of times. When we were on surface he made faces to me…..”’gliding in the water, i can barely see you in water”’ . I had bugged me with my excitement all the way till v started diving. Now it has his turn to bugg me on my non-performance. It took me 20 mins to figure out the right way to breathe.By that time the whole class was ahead of me….i was the only one struggling.

It was such a wonderful experience to be weightless and breathing inside the water like mermaid.Finally, instrutour explained us the various safety measure taken in the water. We played disc for a while, had a small competition across the pool( You guessed it right, i was last) , experienced pressure 20feet inside and water and splashed lot of water on each other. Overall very satisfactory experience.Will recommend again to everyone till than i am trying to get hold of the mermaid in me.

The one-minute commercial featured black-and-white footage of 17 iconic 20th century personalities. In order of appearance they were: Albert Einstein, Bob Dylan, Martin Luther King, Jr.,Richard Branson, John Lennon (with Yoko Ono), Buckminster Fuller, Thomas Edison, Muhammad Ali, Ted Turner, Maria Callas, Mahatma Gandhi, Amelia Earhart, Alfred Hitchcock,Martha Graham, Jim Henson (with Kermit the Frog), Frank Lloyd Wright and Pablo Picasso. The commercial ends with an image of a young girl (identified as Shaan Sahota) opening her closed eyes, as if to see the possibilities before her.

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I use to think quite often, what terrible sins i have done for which i am paying off . Had I understood the logic of our creator-i would have been besides him creating those logic and implementing them. I thanked god for the success of this circumstances.So after brainstorming, i decided to accept to pay for my sins and be thankful that god didnt punish me more severely and more further.

Now, as my mental health was positive and physically body was responding –which signifies i was in a good shape.Started the physiotherapy and after 4 sessions the therapist realized my hand movements above the shoulder was not correct.All the exercise below the shoulder level where fine in fact very seamless. But i had lot of difficulty in exercise above shoulder.The way forward to solve this problem was to go in for one another Hydro-dilatation.As i was already comfortable with the process and its after effects, i was at piece.

So, currently i am waiting for my next hearing i.e my next hydrodilatation appointment. Will keep guys posted about effects and progress after the injection.

1) 40|30 at the Gherkin.

Location:-The city—-Nearest tube:- Aldgate—-Cuisine:- French

40|30 is the restaurant and bar at the very top of the gherkin- one of the most iconic building in london. So if you are looking to impress you know what they say :big building, big party.

2) Altitude 360

Location:-Westminster—-Nearest tube:- Pimlico—-Cuisine:- British

Altitude 360 London is situated in the heart of Westminster in London’s famous SW1, right next to the London Eye, The Houses of Parliament and The River Thames. The venue commands stunning views over all of London and her prominent landmarks.

3) Attic London

Location:-Canary Wharf—-Nearest tube:- South Quays DLR —-Cuisine:- Canapes

The attention to detail of the interior is staggering with ‘50s style furniture offering commodious comfort whilst a panoramic view of London brings an unadulterated wow factor. The bar is surrounded by black granite and the precious stone Tiger’s Eye flown in from India.

4) Hurlingham club

Location:-Fulham—-Nearest tube:- Putney Bridge —-Cuisine:- British

Bordering the Thames in Fulham and set in 42 acres of magnificent grounds, The Hurlingham Club is a green oasis of tradition and international renown. Recognised throughout the world as one of Britain’s greatest private members’ clubs, it retains its quintessentially English traditions and heritage, while providing modern facilities and services for its members.

5) The landmark

Location:-Marylebone—-Nearest tube:- Marylebone —-Cuisine:- British/Afternoon Tea

Whether for business or please, this hotel caters to your every need making it a landmark by name and nature.A lavish banquet in the The Grand Ballroom after a dramatic entrance through the atrium of the hotel mesmerises your mind.

6) Vista

Location:-Trafalgar square—-Nearest tube:-charing cross —-Cuisine:- Modern Europe

A stylish oasis above the chaos of trafalgar square, vista is a design as sophisticated as the view. In true London style, the sleek, monochrome design tells a story of the city in all its fashionable, trend-setting glory. With black polished tables, smooth white stools, charcoal decking and signature patterned cushions, the design achieves a neutral yet striking space.

A canapé is a small, prepared and usually decorative food, held in the fingers and often eaten in one bite.

Because they are often served during cocktail hours, it is often desired that a canapé be either salty or spicy, in order to encourage guests to drink more. A canapé may also be referred to as finger food, although not all finger foods are canapés. Crackers or small slices of bread or toast or puff pastry, cut into various shapes, serve as the base for savory butters or pastes, often topped with a “canopy”

The French started offering canapés to their guests in the 18th century, and the English adopted the practice at the end of the following century. One modern version of the canapé is the amuse-bouche. Amuse-bouche literally means “mouth amuser” but is translated more delicately as “palate pleaser”

Being a vegetarian few canape recipes go well with cocktails are:- Tomato tarte tatins and Mini lemon Tarlets.

I sat looking around the hospital and trying to gulp my fear.My friends revathy and srenuka were waiting  outside, in the lobby, looking towards me. The expression in their eyes was hilarious…. it was u have to be brave for the operation but at the same time they hoped it doesn’t cause me much  pain. My husband-vishal was looking into some papers to be signed.

In mids of my thought i heard  nurse calling my name, once i went to her she asked me to step in the operation theater and I looked in the direction of vishal, revathy and srenuka. They waved me a thumbs up–convening best of luck.I nodded my head and went inside.

I was asked to lay down on the operation table. My effected left shoulder was rubbed with a antiseptic spray and a local anesthesia was given. I was so scared, the doc saw the expression and started a conversation with me.He asked me about the condition and what i did for living etc etc etc etc.

He injected a needle syringe on my shoulder through which the hydrodilation water (or what ever you call) could pass in my body. I didn’t feel perk of the needle but suddenly i felt such a great pressure on or inside my shoulder that i started to shever.The pressure was so intense i felt like some one has kept the 50kg dumbels on it. Than with in next 2 sec it got all relieved…..he repeated the same procedure for one more time and then it was over.

Doc said the process was successful and i can go ahead and enjoy my day.I thought the doc was jerk. Anyways came out got dressed and started towards home. 3 of them (revtahy, srenuka and vishal) were so anxious to know. I told them everything and tried to relax a bit as my shoulder was giving me a tough time.It was paing as the anesthesia was becoming inactive. Reached home and had lunch prepared by my friends.To distract my self we all sat to watch a movie as always.By the time the movie was over my pain had gone and suddenly i realized my hand was no longer stiff.

Out of curiosity i moved my hand and wola…..i had my movements up to 70% . Couple of hours before I could not lift my hand and here i am with all the stiffness gone….hurray celebration time.I couldn’t believe what magic had Hydrodilatation done to me….I am very thankful to the god for such a miracle.I was supposed to go in for physiotherapy session for next 8 weeks which could improve the hand movement.

From that day onwards i was able to pull out shelfs, comb my hair without pain, eat food with fork and knife (of course with both the hands), take shopping bags i.e weight, finally run fit.I was extremely happy with the result…..Felt wried for all the people who didn’t get success in the blogs that i had read to gain confidence. So readers i would say please try hydro-dilatation if you have an option.

Started my physiotherapy sessions in mid Nov 2010 till jan 2011 end.There was a 10% improvement in my hand. With regular visit to hospital twice a week the pain was not much but the hand movement was restricted.

The orthopedic evaluated my condition in feb 2011 1st week. He realized the movement was not as per accepted, my hand was still stiff but pain had reduced drastically was rather to put it this way- i was use to pain.Way forward was to either surgery or hydrodilation or leave it on its own to heal.

1) Hydrodilation:-

Some cases of frozen shoulder or adhesive capsulitis are very resistant to the normal treatment methods used and the pain and limited movement persists for many months.

Hydrodilation or hydrodilatation (the two words mean the same thing) is a unique way to improve frozen shoulder. It works well for almost every case of a frozen stuck shoulder.

The principle is simple really.

The sticky adhesions of a frozen shoulder cause the joint capsule to stick to the bones and to other parts of the capsule – leading to pain and limited movement. By using an x-ray machine to guide a needle into the shoulder joint and then using that needle to inject fluid under gentle pressure, these sticky adhesions can be teased apart and stretched – causing a release from the pain and stiffness.

2. Surgey

Frozen shoulder is a self-limiting Condition.The key is to find a way to obtain pain relief while nature gets on with the job of regaining normal movement and function. Nature achieves this in almost every case. That doesn’t leave much of a role for surgical treatment!

Operations for frozen shoulder tend to be reserved for those who have failed to gain pain relief from other means or who have ongoing stiffness and loss of function after long months of treatment. Modern surgery for frozen shoulder involves going into the joint with an arthroscope (a camera) through a very small incision. The surgeon can see any tight areas in the joint capsule and can free up the joint by separating any stuck sections. Some surgeons previously manipulated the shoulder very aggressively when the patient was under anaesthetic but this technique is now rarely used. It was often effective but carried quite a high risk of damaging the joint or the bones of the shoulder region.

3. Leave it in its own:- Nature works out a way to heal the frozen shoulder, so you can leave and it will heal eventually.

My choice was to go ahead with hydrodilatation.mI dint wanted to go in for another surgery as i have seen the effect of 1 before. As there was no alternate choice than to go in for hydrodilatation. Doc refered me and i got an appointment on 21st feb 2011.

Mean time i thought to google out about this process. I read many blogs who didn’t hd quite a good experience and resulted in more mess. I was really worried but had no option.

Hydrodilatation simply put is a process in which a salt water is injected in your shoulder. Due to the excess pressure the capsules expands and breaks realising all the joints.Scary right….even i was.The follwoing fig shows when the injection is important.Tried to be clam and go ahead with the process.

Movement of hand was 20 to 30% as compared to the earlier static situation– in my opinion it was much better than before.I was hoping after physiotherapy session i would be running fine. The day arrived –had a evaluation and the result was told in fraction of second. I have developed frozen shoulder.

Little brief about frozen shoulder:- Frozen shoulder (sometimes called adhesive capsulitis) is a condition where a shoulder becomes painful and stiff. Shoulder movements become reduced, sometimes completely ‘frozen’. It is thought to be due to scar-like tissue forming in the shoulder capsule. Without treatment, symptoms usually go but this may take up to 2-3 years. Various treatments may ease pain and improve the movement of the shoulder.

Reasons for frozen shoulder:-

The cause is not clear. It is thought that some scar tissue forms in the shoulder capsule. The capsule is a thin tissue that covers and protects the shoulder joint. The scar tissue may cause the capsule to thicken, contract and limit the movement of the shoulder. The reason why the scar tissue forms is not known.

A frozen shoulder occasionally follows a shoulder injury. However, this is not usual and most cases occur for no apparent reason.