My dear daughter,
It seems like yesterday that we brought you home from the hospital, and now you are my little angle. Your father and I were very nervous at the prospect of being first time parents It did not strike us until you arrived – and then it hit us.I must say, i fit into the mother role pretty fast.But I was overwhelmed by this new responsibility. To care for this tiny life for the rest of my life! Was I ready for it?
It took a while for me to come to terms with the fact that I was a mother and was going to be one forever. But today after 1 year and almost 3 months of looking back, I cannot help but smile. It is a feeling of fulfillment beyond words. Although I am still not sure if I am a great mother, I feel that I have done some justice to the role.
Every milestone of yours was a kind of personal victory for me. Your first smile, your first word, your first step…. I was just amazed and once again overwhelmed at what a little miracle you are.
As the months have passed things started to get very challenging and sometimes I found myself in very difficult situations. The mess you made, the tantrums you threw, and the other millions of naughty things you did really stressed me out. I have agonised over many of the decisions I had to make when it came to discipline. I have had many arguments with your dad. But in time we learnt to parent as a team. We still have our differences of opinion but have learned to listen to each other.Yesterday, we had been to a vision express—to give a fresh order for my specs. You have sucessfully trown 2 specs that i previously owned. I was so watchful over you and few seconds i tried few frames, you smashed your middle finger(left hand) with a wodden plank. You cried for almost an hour and i was feeling terrbile for not been extra watchful over you. I know the pain when must have gone through sorry for that…..
I have learnt so much from you and will continue to do so for the years to come. You have a million dollar smile.You can win anybody with your smile. when you grow up and have boyfriend they will tell you this…take it form me. How to forgive, how to love unconditionally, how not to expect anything in return, how to be innocent, how to enjoy the small things in life, how to be carefree…. The list is endless…. Thank you! You have made my life worthwhile! God bless you!Its so pleasure to watch you grow.
Love u always,