Everybody’s life goes through ups and down. Mine specially very too often.I always think to my self, does the current situation manifest overnight or i have been doing wrong this long? The answer is always around the corner but never to clear.Its not that i dont have the courage to change my life around but its the lack of understanding of how to do it.Even though i do have some pretty good experience to back up my CV on this….
1st life turn around :- I had to do it with lot of HARD WORK
I was a happy 12th class teenage girl dreaming about doing my graduation from one of the esteemed collage in Mumbai. Been born and brought there, my soul resides in that city. Destiny had a different story to open in front of me. I was packed to hometown Gulbarga-12 hours from mumbai for Engg in Electrical and Electronics.The place is small , people are still pretty conservative with hardly any fashion sense.The decision taken was due to my grandpa’s deteriorating Diabetic and alzheimer’s condition.He was very attached to Gulbarga and any action taken would have adverse effect on him, this was the advice given by the docs.It was a platform change for me, the professors thought in a very different English accent and there was different parking for the gender in School with little interaction between them.So this took a toll on me and i could not clear my 1st year of engg with 5 subject below the pass marks.The constant doc attention to grandpa and my own settling issues contributed to the situation.But i turned around my life. I passed all the subject with 80%+and did pretty good there after.Strategy was-WORK Hard. I studied for hours and was prepared even before exam times so that even if grandpa’s condition worsened during exam time it wouldn’t effect my result.
2nd turn around:- Leap of faith
Its here in Enng i meet love of my life. It wasn’t attraction in 1st sight. But his presence made me comfortable in total unknown place.I would connect with me mentally and he understood my issues as he hailed from outside too. As it more often termed as outsiders, we both found solace in each other(me little more).Once we completed graduation, differences started effecting us.Its so strange these so called ”difference” make the basis of your relationship and after few days they act against your relationship.The best part of our relationship was we took each others advice with complete trust. But then these so called difference did their magic and we drifted apart.I couldn’t lift myself, lost my job.Did usually stupid things after break up and just couldn’t let it go….then i took a Leap of faith and let it go with open arms.Life is so simple in one way and yet can seem so hard and terrifying in another.I pushed myself in a uncomfortable space to create change and build the new conditions that lead me to a new life.
3rd turn around:- It all about me-Self respect.
It took me a while to find love again. I am so lucky to have second chance.I was actually coming to peace to be content with where i was at life.However, it feels pretty different from the times that I tried to pretend I was really okay with being single when I wasn’t -because, just when you are content with your singleness, that’s when Mr. Right comes along, right? So we meet and feel in love and got married.It was pretty easy to settle with him even in new city with new challenges.But it all seemed worth while ( i hope it stays that way for rest of my life) .You’d think by now I would have learned that life is never how it’s “supposed to be”, but I still keep expecting it to go a certain course.3 years of blissful marriage and i was blessed with a supercute gril-Vipra. That’s when i moved in with my inlaws and i assumed that i would settle down as planned?Truthfully, there’s a part of me that did assume it would. But it didn’t go as planned. There were various dynamics to the situation and it become worse, even after all trying to float together. Apparently I still have a lot to learn about patience. All i did was started demanding respect for me and my husband and things started falling in place.After a struggle of 1 year all is up and running. All the lines are drawn and everybody involved abides to that line.
4th turn around:- ( I am still figuring it out what should it be this time…)
I suffered a horrible allergy due to which doc had to prescribe steroids.It looks like i have hyper reactive allergy towards Citric.Now citric is every where..lime,septrellis, juice etc, you practically breath citric.Due to steroids i have put on 16kgs more. Even after pregnancy i would shed off the weight within 8 months, but this time the weight is pretty stubborn.My lung capacity is drooped and doc has advised not to exercise.Just-light walking. The barbie wouldn’t loose few gms from walking let alone the steroids weight i have gained.I some how managed to knock down the 6 kgs with diet. Now the remaining 10kgs wont go……its as stubborn as British weather. I had to resign my job, i am lethargic due to the condition.I see my daughter full of energy and a supportive husband,i go weak in my knees.I need to do something about this situation…….i am trying hard to figure that out.I cant sit at home without working and contributing to my daughter’s future.On second thought i am happy to spend time with her and watch her grow everyday.But i need to get on tracks …be healthy and working. Thats just me….so still thinking hard about how to turn my life around 4th time…i am sure i will sooner or later find a way out……
But to reach the goal( the goal is to shed 10ks) i have made new definition A new definition of who you are brings new possibilities and a new vision of what you deserve and want for your life. Once you can see these new possibilities you can decide what you now want to experience. This is a clear concise vision of what you desire to create for yourself that is markedly different from what you have been experiencing. You must see and believe in a completely new you so that life can harmonize with this vision.I am gone try this till i fail or succeed…